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Went DBG with Zemaine yesterday. We walked around, had lunch at Xin Wang. Gosh, it was a joke and finally we went out together. After that, we headed down to Orchard. Walked Ion, Wisma and then Taka. Guess what, I bought a new shirt! Heehee :D After that, Cass came down to meet us at Taka. I haven't seen her since dino years.

After they left, met up with MelisaSeow and PatSeow. Haha, the miss seows. We had dinner at Ion, and we walked around until we suddenly felt like watching a movie. So we went to catch NewMoon, AND OMG. THE ENDING IS FRICKIN DUMB PLEASE. But overall it was okay and quite good! Except for the ending. After that, managed to catch the last 139(?) with Pat. (:

Yesterday was pretty good! Catching up with EVERYONE, close peeps and ex-peepo.
Managed to talk on the phone with a few peepo too. :D

Now, I gotta go for the 100 years service thing.
Rah. Miracles needs to happen!!

Back from Batam!
It was awesome. Lets see, day one was pretty much slack. The ferry ride was something different. I remember I was tweeting. :> Sat next to Poon, with Liz opp us. We were all listening to Kpop, munching on honeystars and sweets. DayTwoThreeFour were pretty much the same. Just different levels of fun. And I tell you, Van One rocks! Haha. Poon, Liz and I would sing our lungs out everyday. In a way entertaining the entire van? (: We became the backvan girls cause we would always sit at the back, singing and crapping our time out.

The kids at Bengkong were cute and awesome. Kind of miss them, esp Hendy! He didn't come on the last day so I couldn't take a picture with him. ): But managed to take a group shot with him, but I've got no idea who took it for us. ): On the last day, I helped Daniel take his second son. Samuel, who always wanted me to call him Sa-moo-l. And not Sa-meal. Haha, cute. At the Pri Levels, I took this girl called Elisa. She's pretty! And she had bangs. Haha.

Batu Aji side, was fun too. We would crap and play games. And so much for fun, I had two forfeits. But I only did one. Cause Jon helped me took the other. Haha thanks! I miss Yuru and this girl who I've been mistaking her as a boy. I love her, she's so so cute and cheerful. Oh, and eating with our hands were something different too. Haha, for both meals, Meowlyn and I always shared one plate. :>

COSG, was quite fun. Games were pretty fun. Nathan, Tard and I were in the same group where we had to do this remix version of chicken dance. Haha. Had fun making friends, and singing " I've got peace like a river " with the actions. Oh btw, ate the jello we made. It was WOW. Haha. I feel so sad, but I prefer the other group's jello than our own. ):

I think the last night spent in Tard's room was fun. All seven of us( Me Tard Marilyn Raeann Poon Liz Munshuen ) laughed/talked about so much stuff. Haha. And, I squeezed together with TardMarilynMunshuen on the bed on that same night. It was.. quite packed uh.

Shopping was alright? Not that Batam's bad. But Poon Liz & I agreed that their fashion isn't what we like. That was why we didn't buy anything other than FOOD. Well, at least I bought a Rusty bag! It's frickin cute. :>

So I guess overall, the trip's really fun and a new experienceeee. I enjoyed it, even though there were some unhappiness. But I guess it was good. Now, I'm sad. Cause.. I've got bad news. ):


I'll miss you
I'm already missing you.

I LOVE YOU CASSWASS AND BRENDABOOPISAI. <3
This was the epic failure pinic, kudos to Obama.
Thanks Obama, your presence has ruined our roll-man-tic pin-ner(pinic + dinner). But we found a personal bus stop where we could hang out at, that has random visitors and police keeping guard. It didn't turned out that bad afterall. : >

I love rides where by you can sit behind a trunk and enjoy the cool breeze. But it's so rare to get to sit in a trunk. Had that rare chance yesterday though (: There was a bed right at the back, so I asked my mum to let me sit at the back alone. The ride was awesome, the breeze was awesome, the lying down on the bed was awesome. And except for the part where I was were my school polkiedottie uniform, everything else was awesome. I was on the phone, with Zemaine. Talking about anything under the moon, looking at all the people that stared at me. Had a urge of waving and saying Hi. But I didn't. All I did was shouted out loud, Hi ZEMAINE LIM!! Haha, it was fun. I wonder when I'll ever get to ride in a trunk again. Next few years maybe?

So, I had been thinking a lot. Especially about, you. And I don't know what to do. Thats all I've got to say.

Today was pretty fun. I'm a fangirl! I LOVE MT!! <3 I went out with MT, we bought shoes together, I talked with MT, I took a picture with MT and MT's friend!! Anyone jealous? :B Hung out at Agape room, did all the prep we need to do for BatamTrip. Halfway through, Headed down to Clementi to buy our shoes!! 5 BUCKS, Cheap OR WHAT. Went back to school, decorated our shoes! I love my new shoes, like seriously. : >

Lightningz today was specially scary. Thank God the Thunders wasn't.
(:

Despite all the problems and obstacles that pop out occasionally in between my life, but I think my life's planned out and laid out so nicely. Like, people expected me to be like the Company Leader ever since sec one. And I really did become the CL. And like, people expected me to get like the top few in class, and I really did. Isn't all too nicely planned and expected?

Shouldn't life be interesting?
Ah, oh well. Anyways, went to play with my mum's hair dye. And, the joke is, my hair is too black to be even see the differences.

I've got a Twitter! I specially made it for Nicole Chia Chio Bu! : >

So anyways, you can go follow it! :>
TWITTER.COM/BrownieGanny

Back from School.
StayO at Twins place was okay, pretty fun. But it would had been better if we didn't had SCHOOL and many other things on. We shall have another during which would be much fun cause there's prolly more time. School's been.. Tiring. I had one-to-one Chem class with Miss Tan. It was quite productive. I'm starting to cough, and my throat hurts like mad. Lost my voice and found it back, now it's really husky and sore.

Once again, I have to remind myself. Christalbel Gan! What doesn't belongs to you, don't belong to you! Don't keep trying to keep it for yourself. Or You'll be the one losing it. Then again, I can't help but to feel insecure. ):

Yay! I'm going over to twins' place to stayover. Woohu, life rocks! It isn't so boring anymore!

So anyways, today was fab. As in like, it wasn't like those other sucky Fridays. Interview was a joke, GB was pretty fun? I guess. HAHA, I lost myself when I saw the skits. : > Had free bubbletea!! Popcorn and candy floss! Woohu, thx Auntie March! : > Bus ride with twins, it was a joke too. Cell was fun, laughed like a mad girl. And Greg bought us Udders!! Oh Happy day, ( OH HAPPY DAY. ) Oh Happy Day ( OH HAPPY DAY ) !

Once the mother says yes.
FAREAST, Here I come! I'm so looking forward to a yes, then again.. It might be a no?
: >

Oh well.
Might be staying over @ Twins place this weekend, not confirm yet.
But if it is, Thank God! Finally something entertaining in my Holidays. I'm drowned with school and the oh-so-awesome CCA. :)

Drills, tomorrow, AGAIN. On the brighter side, the mother & the aunt & the cousin's bringing me out for dinner tomorrow. Something happy? (:

So, two posts back, I said I expected a not so happy and not so peaceful birthday. I was wrong. Maybe, I was correct for one! It was really not so peaceful. (: Well, thats because.. My birthday isn't here yet, but I already had a fabulous surprise. I love my mother, and those that came! (:

To think, I was actually trying not to go back home. Raeann and I, being trapped in the rain. With one umbrella, and under the heavy rain with loud, scary thunders. Screaming out lungs out, whenever we hear one. Managed to get a cab each, and when I cabbed home. Oh, and I was surprised I could cab home with Farah coming down to pay for my cab fees and opening the door with an umbrella ready for me. And when I'm upstairs, Wanting to change out of the drenched clothes, I go to my room. And SURPRISEEE!! I see, a pontianiak which turned out to be Cass. HAHA, love you Cass! Saw everyone I loved, and gosh. I was really happy! I'm seriously, I didn't cry. But I laughed till my tummy ached. (:

I really enjoyed myself, and thanks everyone! <3

AND, I seriously think that.. I have so many friends who actually can act so well and hide the surprise from me for like, WHAT. 2 -3 weeks? Gosh, I must be really dumb/unobservant. Or they act too well. Not to bring up the EGO of some people, but I really don't want to admit that I'm dumb. So, their acting skills are NOT THAT BAD. :B

I enjoyed myself, and I guess. It's okay that I have drill practise on 5thNov now, since I already have a party that had my mother & favourite friends! <3

Nicole, Pam, Dory, Nat & Jingru.
And Siti.

I've got nothing to say, but just Sorry.
I cried, because I felt bad towards you all. And I blame myself for somethings I've failed to do. I know right, I suck. But yeah, all I can really say now is I'm Sorry. And I'm gna try my best to go out with yall during this Holidays. I've got GB practises in the way, but I'll try my very best yes? 

And one more thing I wanna say to yall, is Thanks for everything. Every single thing you guys have done, that can always make people smile ( and also cause you guys are pretty lame! >P )

But, nevertheless,
I heart you guys, <3

So, now lets put down our sad faces and be happy! The frickin Holidays are here !!!! 

Just when I thought life sucks, it turned better and rocked.
And when I felt that it was starting to rock, it went down to hell.
How great!

Anyways, Christalbel Gan.
It is high time you stop thinking so highly of yourself and judge people. You're in no position to do so.

This year, I'm hoping for a peaceful/slightly happy, birthday.
(I've got a feeling that it's not gna be.)

I'm starting to shake and being unstable.
The feeling of going to collapse.
I don't know, I feel like what used to be mine, are all now no longer mine.
And I hate that feeling. I might be being selfish, but I don't want to lose it/them.
):

I'm starting to lose myself.
And I realised, honestly I don't really understand anyone. Not even my own close friends, and that's frickin sad. I seem to only think for myself. Then again, I don't dare to say much things now. Only the people I trust. Sometimes.. Urgh, forget it. Sometimes I think I'm weird.

Anyways, a big incident has happened. I was scared, and now I'm pretty much still scared. The whole thing was so bad that I've almost done something bad. AH crap. I'm frickin restraining myself from saying a lot cause..

k nvm, I'm just weird.

I found errors in my maths paper. ):

So Maths and Chemistry today! Maths was okay, Chemistry was horrible. I'm so gonna fail Chemistry lor! Hai, anyways I've the last paper tomorrow. F&N , but it feels like as if I already ended my exams!! HAHA. I'm rather happy and looking forward to 930 tomorrow morning! ^ ^ So yeah, I went to Twins place today. Studied a little of F&N , Alicia helped me a little. But most of the time, we were playing. Haha, but okay! I managed to remember whatever she said. So yeah, Wish me luck. Hopefully I can pass!

( Sigh. )

Is it a must to be perfect?
Everything seems to be related to, perfection. Don't even say perfection. Keeping to up to standard, like what. You're not cool enough, so go away. You're a noob, so go away. You're too ugly, go away. You said this, I feel insulted, so go away. Or, I like you but I don't like what you say, so go away. Isn't better if, everyone just accepts everyone? Okay, maybe except for some idiots that are really irritating. But, what's the point of making a line so clear between human and human? I don't get it. And it's so extreme until there are people who get so insecure.

LOL.
Anyways, on the other hand, I want a hedgehog!
And, Happy Belated Birthday Casswass!! Hope you enjoyed your SweetSixteen yesterday! (:

I came upon a magazine and saw a joke.
It is a huge joke, and I can't stop laughing right now.

P.S
If you think you're the joke I'm talking about, I have no comment. Cause I didnt mention anyone, I'm just sharing my joke. (:

Boo & Cass, best FREN FOREVA !!!

The morning started out bad, I didn't want to go for the party. But the mother insisted I had to.
So, i went to school. With the irritated mood. School was okay, 3/8 had a heart-to-heart talk where everyone opened up. I guess it was good. I didn't expected it to turn out this good. (:

So had geog consultation, and pretty much slack in school w CASSWASS.
For some reason, I can't wait for tomorrow.
(:

HAHA.
Shit, I think I am in big trouble. I can't stop smiling. And, even though Boo told me some stuffzxz which by right is suppose to piss me off. I turned out laughing. HAHAHAHA, Hehehehe. Okay shit, stop it. So anw, Morning was horrible. Cause I was bored. So I started thinking of grandpa again, sigh. I need distractions in my life!!

So yeah, I'm pretty much crazy right now.
Please, shut your comment. It isn't my fault I'm feeling crazy now.

However, the Friday yesterday was pretty good. ^ ^
Talked to a few people over the days, and Friday set me thinking a lot. And, I figured out many stuff. So I guess I'm done, I'm not bothered by many things now. Grandpa's matter should be over soon, F1 yesterday was okay. It was good, but I'll expect the actual day ( Tomorrow) to be better. Gosh! I WANT TO GO TOMORROW!! Velda gets to go again! Cause suddenly the Uncle got another two tickets, so the whole family can go now. 

I AM WHINING AT MY MAMA RIGHT, CAUSE I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO.
):

So anyways, I managed to capture some pictures but the cars were going so fast that it was all blurred. Sorry lah, my camera isn't the DSLR/SLR, it isn't so pro. We hung out there for about 2 hours or more? After that, we went over to stayover @ the SRC ( The Residence. ) It was quite zai, cause the balcony was facing the F1 track. So, we pretty much spent our whole night w F1. We bought donuts & pigged out. Then, we fell asleep while watching tv. HAHA.